Kurt and I spent the month of November struggling with a huge array of emotions. We were so excited to sell our condo and finally start the search for a new home that we would raise our family in. We were excited, stressed, overwhelmed and sad to leave the condo. We spent the month searching for homes and rentals trying to find the best place to move our family..
Finally in the first week of December moving week arrived. We both had taken days off to move the house and get adjusted into the new home. On Wednesday morning, we packed the kitchen and removed all of the pictures and shelves off of the wall. After lunch we packed the car and headed to the new house to clean. On the way over we received the phone call. Our realtor called to let us know that the buyer would not sign the extension for the close. (The contract for the condo stated that it had to close on November 30th. )My stomach dropped and I just froze. We sat in the car too stunned for words and then headed back to the condo.
My first thought was why would God do this to us? Why even have an offer on the house and an inspection and an appraisal and have the loan documents sitting in underwriting and just collapse. It was not an issue of financing the buyer just backed out.
We went home and sat on the couch and prayed, we prayed for wisdom and strength and control over our anger. I did not even know how to respond and spent the next 48 hours talking to God. That is when I realized that the world does not revolve around me.These things happen even when we are walking a solid christian walk they will still happen. God does not revolve around my desires and wishes. It is not my plan but his plan. There may be a reason and there may not. But I have to stop believing that God is working for me but in fact that I am a part of his plan. Even knowing all of this I struggled for the next week feeling as though I had done something wrong. I still do not understand why all of this happened but I do trust that God has a plan for me and that I will trust in that even if I spend my life in the condo.
3 comments:
"All things work together for good for those who are called according to His purpose."
I'm grateful to hear how God is using this disappointment to draw you closer to him. Hugs to you!
Phil 4:6-7
“Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” (MSG)
Hang in there, and keep the faith.
Jess and Kurt, ADawn told me I had to read this post and see how encouraging your attitude and faith is: she was not exaggerating. It is good to see trials turn you to God, not away. Thanks for making my day.
-UGary
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